Mysticism of the Heart 3


Trevor: The Sanskrit word is ‘upadhi’. Which means something like ‘putting near’. And that means something like associating with on a false basis. Now, to give a sort of English example, in Westminster Abbey, there’s the tomb of King Edward I. He was a pretty tough king, you might say. In the Middle Ages, wars were fought normally with banners depicting the various sides. But if you went in with red banners, it meant there was no quarter given; you were going to kill every man, woman and child in the land you were invading. And Edward I went into Scotland with red banners. That was a long time ago, about 1292, but…

He was also the king who first, of all the European nations, expelled the Jews – who didn’t get back till Cromwell, so Shakespeare; not clear where he would ever have seen a Jew as the model for his Shylock. But anyway, Edward I was no clement. But in his tomb in Westminster Abbey, there is a motto carved: ‘pactum est factum’; ‘Promised is done’. And from that, he had the reputation of being a very sincere and honest and truth-loving king, who kept his word. But actually, the thing was put up, carved, centuries later, about someone else, and in another connection. It just happens to be…

Now, that would be a case of upadhi. There is a conjunction, a coming together, of two things, which gives a completely false impression of association between them. In yoga, this, it is said that the association of the body and mind with the spirit is of this nature; that it’s what you might call a conjunction, but it’s, there’s no actual connection or association whatever. But it seems that there is.

I don’t know how well you can see this, but these are colours, from dark blue to light blue. They each quite appear separate, a separate colour. But where the boundary takes place – that’s to say between this light blue and this even lighter blue – on the edge here, it seems that this blue has a strip which is darker. I don’t know how clear that is to you. And similarly, here, it seems that on the edge here, that it’s darker. Now, if you cover this over, you see that it’s not a darker strip at all. But it’s the conjunction, the juxtaposition here, the upadhi, which makes this seem darker, makes it seem to change.

Well, this is an example from our physics today of the theme; that the self, the pure self, which is beyond the limitations of body and mind, the quilt, or the mind-cage, body and mind, seems to be limited by its, so to speak, its juxtaposition. And one of the aims of yoga, the main aim of yoga, is to become free, to become aware that this is no true association at all, and to become aware of the separateness of the two.

In a number of the practices, the purpose, for instance, of this posture, is that finally the body is forgotten, and if you persist, you lose the sense of the body. I don’t want to go into details, because if you go into details, people get very excited, and think, “Oh, is this happening? Is this right? That hasn’t happened.” But for instance, one of the things that happens is that the hands, the consciousness of the hands, if they’re locked in this formal way, the consciousness of the hands quite often disappears first. And he feels himself like a shell. And there’s a loss of the separate awareness that the hands. But the aim is to forget the body.

You say, “Oh, you can’t forget the body.” Yes, you do. We forget the body every night when we go to sleep. And when we’re dreaming, we have a dream body, and we forget it when we wake up. Completely. The dream body is often quite different from our waking body. Sometimes I dream that I have perfect vision. Sometimes I dream that I am extremely athletic. I can hardly move now. But I have been athletic. But the dream body is different from the waking body.

Similarly, you can dream that you’re sinking in mud; can’t get out, you’re going to drown. Then you wake up; body situation’s quite different, and the body’s different. So in principle, we are familiar with this. Now, could you read, these are accounts of meditation which has been pursued.

Recording: “The primary condition is a feeling: I am not the body. The complete relinquishment of body consciousness marks attainment of Samadhi. If you meditate on God in this way for 18 months, and now and then devote a week entirely to it, you will lose consciousness of both the world and yourself, and experience only the object of meditation.”

Trevor: For a long time, the body and the mind are real. The object of meditation is a sort of idea, which we conjure up and which we have to keep supporting. The word is ‘dhāraṇā’, which means – it’s from Sanskrit root – dhr – which means to support, to hold firm. And dhāraṇā is holding the idea that, for instance, the picture of the meditation – supposing it was the blue sky, as we did, and holding that. When the mind wanders off to somewhere else, to bring it back to blue sky. When it wanders off again, bring it back patiently. Like pulling in a puppy. Finally he’ll come in and he’ll stay, but he’ll run off a good many times. No use frightening him by getting angry. On the other hand, you can’t just let him go. So keep pulling him in, and he’ll come in when you call his name. Call his name and pull him in, let him go off, call his name, pull him in, and so on.

Well, for a long time, or a time, depending on the person, how much control they’ve got, the mind will wonder off, and then it’s brought back again. It can always be brought back again, because the energy with which it wonders off is my own energy. And I can apply that energy to bringing it back; holding it steadily. Pulling back and back and back.

But the time comes when the meditation changes, into what’s called ‘dhyana’. And this is true meditation. Well, now the thoughts are held onto the one subject. But they’re similar; they change, but they’re similar. They’re not exactly the same. But they’re like each other. If it was on, supposing I was a Buddhist, if it was on the form of a Buddha, then sometimes it would be on the head, or the crown here, or on the eyes, or it would be on the hands, or on the posture. But it would be on the same object. But the thought would change, but there would be similar; the thoughts would be similar.

© Trevor Leggett

Titles in ths series are:

Part 1: Mysticism of the Heart 3

Part 2: Consciousness of the world disappears

Part 3: Conjoin doing good with spiritual practice

Part 4: Honen worshiped Amida Buddha